There's no 5 by 7 recipe card with his name on it saying that it even was his, nor is there a name on a 5 by 7 card saying who donated it, but the suit in the museum, the suit that he wore in the Korean War, was My Dad's. I'm guessing that it's not even called a suit, but the army green jacket matches the army green pants, so I'm calling it a suit.
Today, when I went to the museum to pick up DD for lunch, I went early so I would have time to peruse some photo albums. I was delighted to see a picture from a parade in 1977 - a picture of a float. On that float, along with 3 other war veterans, was My Dad and he was wearing that suit - the army green suit that is on display in the museum where his namesake is working for the summer.
I doubt anyone else who has looked at it, or will look at it, could be as excited about that suit as I am. But I am a bit of a family historian buff. And so, stuff like that is important to me. My Dad wore that suit, and as far as I know, it is the only piece of clothing left of My Dad's with the exception of maybe a tie that Mom gave to Dad's cousin's husband after Dad died. The only time I saw Dad wearing that green suit was in that parade in 1977.
There was a young couple in the library today. They were also family historian buffs. They were living in a different province, but stopped in to look through local history books to see if they could find anything about her family - a family from a neighboring town. The excitement of discovering pictures of her family mounted with every familiar face they discovered in the history books. They left here on a mission of going to that town to see if they could buy a history book. I hope there were still some copies available for them to get their hands on.
I still miss My Dad, but I'm grateful for the treasure of that green suit that is tucked away in our quaint little museum.
Lady and the Cats
bonding on the farm!
Monday, August 19, 2013
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Overwhelmed
The past few weeks have been a test for me of trust; a test that I feel I have passed. It's easy to trust in the Lord when things are going good. For most of my life everything has been good.
But, when life throws a glitch, then what?
For me, I still trust. My Jesus is trustworthy.
I recorded an original song a few years back proclaiming this trust- a song called "our Hope". It was based on Psalm 33 : 20-22. I still proclaim that hope in the Lord and my unwavering trust in Him.
This past week I determined that I would go through whatever path the Lord wanted me to travel. His ways are the best after all. And while on that path I have experienced overwhelming support of family and friends. I was, and am in awe, of the phone calls, visits, encouragement and love that I have received from those dear people who the Lord has set in my path.
The phone calls and prayers from people who don't usually call lifted my spirits. Thank you so much!
I have really experienced the hands and feet of Christ from many and for that alone I would not change the weeks on wondering that I have went through. People truly care and that overwhelms me.
This morning, I was reading from Proverbs 15 and a verse popped out at me - verse 30:
"A twinkle in the eye means joy in the heart,
and good news makes you feel fit as a fiddle."
I'm happy to report that I was the recipient of good news. My doctor received the results of the biopsy yesterday and there is no cancer. I am, according to Proverbs 15:30 - "fit as a fiddle!"
And while myself and my dear family are rejoicing over my good news, I am having mixed feelings. Because while all is well here- now- some people I know have been receiving bad news. And I want to encourage you to pray for them. I want my friends to experience, overwhelmingly, the hands and feet of Christ the way I have.
A friend from college is waiting for her husband to come out of surgery as I am writing this. He unexpectedly had a heart attack the other day. She needs to be overwhelmed by the prayers of people who care.
Dear Son's friend from soccer is undergoing cancer surgery today- a 20 hour surgery from what I hear. His tumour that showed up a few years ago just reared its ugly cancer head again. That family need to be overwhelmed by the prayers of people who care.
My co-worker's husband fell off a ladder yesterday and broke some bones badly. Swelling needs to go down before surgery can take place. They need to be overwhelmed by the prayers of people who care.
Since I received my 'good report' I can't help but wonder, "why me?"
When so many people are going through such difficulties, why am I spared? I believe it's so I can be someone who can overwhelm others by praying.
But, when life throws a glitch, then what?
For me, I still trust. My Jesus is trustworthy.
I recorded an original song a few years back proclaiming this trust- a song called "our Hope". It was based on Psalm 33 : 20-22. I still proclaim that hope in the Lord and my unwavering trust in Him.
This past week I determined that I would go through whatever path the Lord wanted me to travel. His ways are the best after all. And while on that path I have experienced overwhelming support of family and friends. I was, and am in awe, of the phone calls, visits, encouragement and love that I have received from those dear people who the Lord has set in my path.
The phone calls and prayers from people who don't usually call lifted my spirits. Thank you so much!
I have really experienced the hands and feet of Christ from many and for that alone I would not change the weeks on wondering that I have went through. People truly care and that overwhelms me.
This morning, I was reading from Proverbs 15 and a verse popped out at me - verse 30:
"A twinkle in the eye means joy in the heart,
and good news makes you feel fit as a fiddle."
I'm happy to report that I was the recipient of good news. My doctor received the results of the biopsy yesterday and there is no cancer. I am, according to Proverbs 15:30 - "fit as a fiddle!"
And while myself and my dear family are rejoicing over my good news, I am having mixed feelings. Because while all is well here- now- some people I know have been receiving bad news. And I want to encourage you to pray for them. I want my friends to experience, overwhelmingly, the hands and feet of Christ the way I have.
A friend from college is waiting for her husband to come out of surgery as I am writing this. He unexpectedly had a heart attack the other day. She needs to be overwhelmed by the prayers of people who care.
Dear Son's friend from soccer is undergoing cancer surgery today- a 20 hour surgery from what I hear. His tumour that showed up a few years ago just reared its ugly cancer head again. That family need to be overwhelmed by the prayers of people who care.
My co-worker's husband fell off a ladder yesterday and broke some bones badly. Swelling needs to go down before surgery can take place. They need to be overwhelmed by the prayers of people who care.
Since I received my 'good report' I can't help but wonder, "why me?"
When so many people are going through such difficulties, why am I spared? I believe it's so I can be someone who can overwhelm others by praying.
Friday, August 9, 2013
Stitches
When I was in grade 3 I had my appendix out. The doctor, Dr. Ramiya, strangely smelled my breath and said, "She needs her appendix out." How could he smell that? Hmm...
Anyway, some time after, after spending a week in the hospital in my home town, and then after some time at home, it was time for the stitches to come out. Back in 1972 stitches didn't dissolve on their own. And so, Mom, and possibly even Dad, took me back to the hospital for the procedure.
Dr. Ramiya came into the room where I was laying on the table. I'm pretty sure there was a nurse in the room too. And Mom. I remember the pain of the moment. He grabbed the end of the 'thread' and yanked. Not gently. No warning. Just 'yank!' Apparently the 'stitches' was 1 long 'stitch'. 1 long piece of stitch thread came out. My head spun. My nausea danced. I almost fainted. That hurt! I never forgot that hurt. Fortunately all the other stitches that I've had put in my body have been held together by dissolvable stitches. And they were all put 'in' when I was 'out'.
Except for Easter 2002. Well, the day before Easter actually. Dear Son, who was 5 at the time, wanted to play ball. I was up to bat. DS was the pitcher. Man! Could he ever pitch. I didn't even see the ball coming. The pain in my mouth immediately after he wound up alerted me to the fact that he had already pitched. And so I went for stitches. "Oh!" my doctor said as he looked at me, "Oh, this might hurt a little when I put the freezing in..." I'm learning to be wary of his warnings of 'might hurt a bit.." Honestly though, it didn't hurt. I ended up with stitches in my lip and it swelled really big and I was due to sing the next morning at church with a swollen, sore lip! The stitches were dissolvable though.
Today I went up to the health care centre in my little town to have my stitch removed from the biopsy. The nurse was so kind. "Is this from a lumpectomy?" she asked. "No- biopsy," I replied. The gloves came on, the tweezers came out, and the stitch was removed. No pain. No nausea. No fainting.
I left and walked out into the beautiful sunshiny summer day.
I wish the stitch removal was also the end of the waiting for results. Closure would be nice. But still I wait. And still I am prayed for. And still I trust in the Lord, the Lord who is the One who heals. The One who knows me better than I know myself wants my trust. And so I give it to Him. Wholeheartedly. Stitch scars and all...
Anyway, some time after, after spending a week in the hospital in my home town, and then after some time at home, it was time for the stitches to come out. Back in 1972 stitches didn't dissolve on their own. And so, Mom, and possibly even Dad, took me back to the hospital for the procedure.
Dr. Ramiya came into the room where I was laying on the table. I'm pretty sure there was a nurse in the room too. And Mom. I remember the pain of the moment. He grabbed the end of the 'thread' and yanked. Not gently. No warning. Just 'yank!' Apparently the 'stitches' was 1 long 'stitch'. 1 long piece of stitch thread came out. My head spun. My nausea danced. I almost fainted. That hurt! I never forgot that hurt. Fortunately all the other stitches that I've had put in my body have been held together by dissolvable stitches. And they were all put 'in' when I was 'out'.
Except for Easter 2002. Well, the day before Easter actually. Dear Son, who was 5 at the time, wanted to play ball. I was up to bat. DS was the pitcher. Man! Could he ever pitch. I didn't even see the ball coming. The pain in my mouth immediately after he wound up alerted me to the fact that he had already pitched. And so I went for stitches. "Oh!" my doctor said as he looked at me, "Oh, this might hurt a little when I put the freezing in..." I'm learning to be wary of his warnings of 'might hurt a bit.." Honestly though, it didn't hurt. I ended up with stitches in my lip and it swelled really big and I was due to sing the next morning at church with a swollen, sore lip! The stitches were dissolvable though.
Today I went up to the health care centre in my little town to have my stitch removed from the biopsy. The nurse was so kind. "Is this from a lumpectomy?" she asked. "No- biopsy," I replied. The gloves came on, the tweezers came out, and the stitch was removed. No pain. No nausea. No fainting.
I left and walked out into the beautiful sunshiny summer day.
I wish the stitch removal was also the end of the waiting for results. Closure would be nice. But still I wait. And still I am prayed for. And still I trust in the Lord, the Lord who is the One who heals. The One who knows me better than I know myself wants my trust. And so I give it to Him. Wholeheartedly. Stitch scars and all...
Sunday, August 4, 2013
He's Singing Over Me
Years ago, when I attended the Alliance Church in the city, I remember my spirit melting whenever Dennis would sing. I remember thinking that his wife, Faith, was pretty lucky. I could imagine Dennis singing her to sleep at night. And so, I prayed, that the Lord would bless me with a husband who would sing over me.
Then I met My Sweetheart. No woman, in her right mind, would want My Sweetheart to sing her to sleep. It just wouldn't happen.
The Lord blessed me, not with a husband who sings me to sleep, but a husband who is perfect for me in every way that I need him to be.
My Sweetheart is faithful.
My Sweetheart is hard working.
My Sweetheart is a good provider.
My Sweetheart is honest.
My Sweetheart is compassionate.
My Sweetheart is a good father.
My Sweetheart is a wonderful friend.
My Sweetheart is not, however, a good singer.
Yesterday was a particularly difficult day for me. I was down. I was worried a little bit. I'm trying to renew my mind because that's an important thing to do, according to Scripture. "do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind so that you may prove what the will of God is- that which is good and acceptable and perfect..." (from Romans 12)
I'm telling myself that worry is not good. It serves no purpose. I'm trying to shoo it from the hidden crevices in my mind. But it's hiding there. And when I think I'm doing good- poof- worry rears its ugly and annoying head. And it could very well keep on doing that until I get the results back regarding that biopsy. My mind is not transforming as quickly as I'd like it to. But, I realize, transformation is usually not instantaneous. Maybe I should delete the word "usually" from that sentence.
I needed someone to sing over me yesterday. I sang. I worshipped. I prayed. I cried a little. But I really wanted to be sung over.
This morning I came upon a treasure in the Bible, in an obscure book that I had not paid too much attention to. Zephaniah. A prophet. A short 3 chapter treasure nestled between Habbakuk and Haggai.
In the many, many verses in the Bible regarding singing, especially in the Psalms, the singing is a personal or corporate response to God's love. But, in this book of Zephaniah, is a verse that I will be memorizing. It speaks of God's abiding love for me. And it tells me that HE is singing over me. Me! My Creator is singing over me!
The Lord your God is in your midst.
(He is with me- Emmanuel)
The Mighty One will save
(He is my Saviour)
He will rejoice over you with gladness.
(What an affirmation)
He will quiet you with His love.
(Abiding peace)
He will rejoice over you with singing.
(I am rejoiced over. And sung over.)
Zephaniah 3:17
What a difference a day, and a verse, can make. I'm not worried today. I know that My God is rejoicing over me with gladness, quieting me with love, and rejoicing over me with singing. No one on earth can top that.
Then I met My Sweetheart. No woman, in her right mind, would want My Sweetheart to sing her to sleep. It just wouldn't happen.
The Lord blessed me, not with a husband who sings me to sleep, but a husband who is perfect for me in every way that I need him to be.
My Sweetheart is faithful.
My Sweetheart is hard working.
My Sweetheart is a good provider.
My Sweetheart is honest.
My Sweetheart is compassionate.
My Sweetheart is a good father.
My Sweetheart is a wonderful friend.
My Sweetheart is not, however, a good singer.
Yesterday was a particularly difficult day for me. I was down. I was worried a little bit. I'm trying to renew my mind because that's an important thing to do, according to Scripture. "do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind so that you may prove what the will of God is- that which is good and acceptable and perfect..." (from Romans 12)
I'm telling myself that worry is not good. It serves no purpose. I'm trying to shoo it from the hidden crevices in my mind. But it's hiding there. And when I think I'm doing good- poof- worry rears its ugly and annoying head. And it could very well keep on doing that until I get the results back regarding that biopsy. My mind is not transforming as quickly as I'd like it to. But, I realize, transformation is usually not instantaneous. Maybe I should delete the word "usually" from that sentence.
I needed someone to sing over me yesterday. I sang. I worshipped. I prayed. I cried a little. But I really wanted to be sung over.
This morning I came upon a treasure in the Bible, in an obscure book that I had not paid too much attention to. Zephaniah. A prophet. A short 3 chapter treasure nestled between Habbakuk and Haggai.
In the many, many verses in the Bible regarding singing, especially in the Psalms, the singing is a personal or corporate response to God's love. But, in this book of Zephaniah, is a verse that I will be memorizing. It speaks of God's abiding love for me. And it tells me that HE is singing over me. Me! My Creator is singing over me!
The Lord your God is in your midst.
(He is with me- Emmanuel)
The Mighty One will save
(He is my Saviour)
He will rejoice over you with gladness.
(What an affirmation)
He will quiet you with His love.
(Abiding peace)
He will rejoice over you with singing.
(I am rejoiced over. And sung over.)
Zephaniah 3:17
What a difference a day, and a verse, can make. I'm not worried today. I know that My God is rejoicing over me with gladness, quieting me with love, and rejoicing over me with singing. No one on earth can top that.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Just Another Day
I thought I should wait until after the results came back, and then, if need be, let people know.
"I think," My Sweetheart said, "that you should tell people now and then they can be praying for you."
And so I did. And so I am.
Last week I went to the doctor. He examined what I went for. And on Tues I had a biopsy.
"This might hurt a little," my doctor said. Good thing I was forewarned. I wish I would have been knocked out. I'm glad it hurt a little. I shudder to think of what it would have been like if it would have hurt a lot. I'm glad My Sweetheart was with me. Squeezing his hand while the needle with the freezing was going in was somewhat comforting. Having him hand me my water bottle while the cutting and tugging and removing was going on was appreciated too.
Earlier this year I went to the doctor when a suspicious looking 'thing' appeared out of nowhere. I watched it grow from a pimply looking thing to a somewhat ugly thing; then I knew I better make an appointment. My doctor examined it and then set up a mammogram.
Those cartoons about mammograms are funny until a person has one. I likened the procedure to having a part of me squeeze through a wringer washer. I almost fainted. Truly. The technician, who was very friendly, brought me a chair. And a glass of water. She was probably thinking she should have brought the anasthesiologist while she was at it. Next time.
Anyway, some time later, the clinic phoned me with the good news. Nothing abnormal showed up with the mammogram. Great news actually!
But the 'thing' never quite went away. There was never a lump either. Just this ugly thing.
A few weeks ago another one appeared.
My doctor is hoping to rule out Paget's Disease, which until this all happened, I had never heard of. From what I've read about it, it is a rare breast cancer. I read it doesn't show up on mammograms. I read that it is often misdiagnosed because it seems to clear up. Everything I've read is a little disconcerting to me.
I told My Sweetheart, the other night while I was debating about keeping mum or going public, that "OK - I will tell about what I'm going through for 2 reasons - 1. to inform other women about this potential rare cancer and 2. to share my faith journey and trust in the Lord through this- no matter what the outcome."
I know that the Lord is already there- in the future- when the results come back. I take great comfort in knowing that He is with me through this time of uncertainty. And I know that, no matter what, He will use this for His glory. This isn't a surprise to Him. So I will try not to worry, even though the not knowing is difficult. But I am going to try and replace this worry, which focuses on me, with trust in the Lord, which will transfer that focus to Him. And that is much better.
"I think," My Sweetheart said, "that you should tell people now and then they can be praying for you."
And so I did. And so I am.
Last week I went to the doctor. He examined what I went for. And on Tues I had a biopsy.
"This might hurt a little," my doctor said. Good thing I was forewarned. I wish I would have been knocked out. I'm glad it hurt a little. I shudder to think of what it would have been like if it would have hurt a lot. I'm glad My Sweetheart was with me. Squeezing his hand while the needle with the freezing was going in was somewhat comforting. Having him hand me my water bottle while the cutting and tugging and removing was going on was appreciated too.
Earlier this year I went to the doctor when a suspicious looking 'thing' appeared out of nowhere. I watched it grow from a pimply looking thing to a somewhat ugly thing; then I knew I better make an appointment. My doctor examined it and then set up a mammogram.
Those cartoons about mammograms are funny until a person has one. I likened the procedure to having a part of me squeeze through a wringer washer. I almost fainted. Truly. The technician, who was very friendly, brought me a chair. And a glass of water. She was probably thinking she should have brought the anasthesiologist while she was at it. Next time.
Anyway, some time later, the clinic phoned me with the good news. Nothing abnormal showed up with the mammogram. Great news actually!
But the 'thing' never quite went away. There was never a lump either. Just this ugly thing.
A few weeks ago another one appeared.
My doctor is hoping to rule out Paget's Disease, which until this all happened, I had never heard of. From what I've read about it, it is a rare breast cancer. I read it doesn't show up on mammograms. I read that it is often misdiagnosed because it seems to clear up. Everything I've read is a little disconcerting to me.
I told My Sweetheart, the other night while I was debating about keeping mum or going public, that "OK - I will tell about what I'm going through for 2 reasons - 1. to inform other women about this potential rare cancer and 2. to share my faith journey and trust in the Lord through this- no matter what the outcome."
I know that the Lord is already there- in the future- when the results come back. I take great comfort in knowing that He is with me through this time of uncertainty. And I know that, no matter what, He will use this for His glory. This isn't a surprise to Him. So I will try not to worry, even though the not knowing is difficult. But I am going to try and replace this worry, which focuses on me, with trust in the Lord, which will transfer that focus to Him. And that is much better.
Monday, July 22, 2013
LadyBug
Almost three years ago we took Lady, our Golden Retriever, to the vet. She showed me (Lady that is) a lump. Honestly. Lady communicates with me in a strange bizarre way. She will give me a certain look with her eyes, then twist her body around until I notice something that is bothering her. So, almost three years ago, she gave me 'that look', and laid on her back and wriggled around, until I noticed it. As soon as I did I said, 'Oh, Lady- I see it.' Then she went back to what she was doing, I phoned the vet, made an appointment, and we were off. We booked 'the' appointment for Bentley at the same time. "The" appointment that boy dogs might not particularly be thrilled to go to if they know what's going to happen.
The vet checked Lady over, examined the lump, and determined that it was probably cancer. It wasn't a very big lump, but since Bentley was going to be 'out of it' for a time while he had his little procedure, the vet would remove Lady's lump too. My Sweetheart and I had a day to go shopping while the dogs were having their procedures done.
When we returned to pick them up and take them home, Bentley surprised us by leaping and bounding and smiling. We were amused by his antics, especially considering that he had just been neutered. I guess he didn't know. And, I guess, the drugs hadn't worn off.
Lady, on the other hand, wasn't faring too well. She bled quite a bit. And the bleeding didn't want to stop - even with stitches. Her breed, the vet told us, sometimes runs into that problem. The blood doesn't clot like it should. Anyway, the bleeding stopped and we loaded her, gingerly and tenderly, into the back seat beside her goofy, young 'brother-type' Bentley.
We got about half hour away from the vets, when I checked on her, and her wound was bleeding again. After a quick phone call, we were on the way back to the vet. We were relieved when they said they'd keep her overnight to make sure all was well.
Lady would be, we were told, living on borrowed time. The cancer would undoubtedly spread, in time, maybe quickly. We decided to make her days special. Those days turned into months. And then a year. And another year.
The tumours came. The cancer spread, and is now spreading too fast for our liking. It started with a tumour in her eye. Then her nipples. Now she has a very big one on her belly. It is ugly. And it is slowing her down. My Sweetheart and I noticed that she was really slowing down the other night when we took the dogs, Lady, Bentley and Chico, for a walk. Every time, up until that night, that we had taken them for walks, the 2 big dogs would take off ahead of us. They would run, explore, sniff, roll around, play with each other, run back to us for pets, run ahead again, and keep on. But not the other night. When we got to as far south as we were going to walk, we turned around. Lady was so far behind. And shortly after that is when we noticed the huge ugly tumour on her belly. It had to have been bothering her so much then. She just didn't tell me about it. Maybe she just wanted to sneak another walk in without worrying me.
Tonight, when I came home after taking My Mom to her home after a supper of fresh garden potatoes, maple glazed salmon, Caesar salad, and Saskatoon berry pie followed by 2 games of buy-rummy- Lady didn't move. She was on the front step, just laying there. Her tail wagged. But she didn't lift her head. I walked up the steps and gave her a pat. She gave me her look. And tonight that look told me that she was hurting. So I brought her in the house. I gave her extra food- extra soft food that is. She ate it and that made me happy. I'm glad she's still eating. She has tumours in her mouth too, so I fear that one of these days she will be unable to eat. After she finished eating she came and sat beside me while I was at my laptop. She had a hard time sitting because of where her big ugly tumour is. But she sat so that her eyes were closer to my eyes. And she just looked at me. And I looked at her. And I gave her extra pets. And extra hugs. And I asked her about her day. Then I told her that I knew that she was hurting. She just sat there, soaking up the attention, soaking up the love. I talked to her with tears in my eyes. She knows that I know. And I hope she knows that she is loved.
The vet checked Lady over, examined the lump, and determined that it was probably cancer. It wasn't a very big lump, but since Bentley was going to be 'out of it' for a time while he had his little procedure, the vet would remove Lady's lump too. My Sweetheart and I had a day to go shopping while the dogs were having their procedures done.
When we returned to pick them up and take them home, Bentley surprised us by leaping and bounding and smiling. We were amused by his antics, especially considering that he had just been neutered. I guess he didn't know. And, I guess, the drugs hadn't worn off.
Lady, on the other hand, wasn't faring too well. She bled quite a bit. And the bleeding didn't want to stop - even with stitches. Her breed, the vet told us, sometimes runs into that problem. The blood doesn't clot like it should. Anyway, the bleeding stopped and we loaded her, gingerly and tenderly, into the back seat beside her goofy, young 'brother-type' Bentley.
We got about half hour away from the vets, when I checked on her, and her wound was bleeding again. After a quick phone call, we were on the way back to the vet. We were relieved when they said they'd keep her overnight to make sure all was well.
Lady would be, we were told, living on borrowed time. The cancer would undoubtedly spread, in time, maybe quickly. We decided to make her days special. Those days turned into months. And then a year. And another year.
The tumours came. The cancer spread, and is now spreading too fast for our liking. It started with a tumour in her eye. Then her nipples. Now she has a very big one on her belly. It is ugly. And it is slowing her down. My Sweetheart and I noticed that she was really slowing down the other night when we took the dogs, Lady, Bentley and Chico, for a walk. Every time, up until that night, that we had taken them for walks, the 2 big dogs would take off ahead of us. They would run, explore, sniff, roll around, play with each other, run back to us for pets, run ahead again, and keep on. But not the other night. When we got to as far south as we were going to walk, we turned around. Lady was so far behind. And shortly after that is when we noticed the huge ugly tumour on her belly. It had to have been bothering her so much then. She just didn't tell me about it. Maybe she just wanted to sneak another walk in without worrying me.
Tonight, when I came home after taking My Mom to her home after a supper of fresh garden potatoes, maple glazed salmon, Caesar salad, and Saskatoon berry pie followed by 2 games of buy-rummy- Lady didn't move. She was on the front step, just laying there. Her tail wagged. But she didn't lift her head. I walked up the steps and gave her a pat. She gave me her look. And tonight that look told me that she was hurting. So I brought her in the house. I gave her extra food- extra soft food that is. She ate it and that made me happy. I'm glad she's still eating. She has tumours in her mouth too, so I fear that one of these days she will be unable to eat. After she finished eating she came and sat beside me while I was at my laptop. She had a hard time sitting because of where her big ugly tumour is. But she sat so that her eyes were closer to my eyes. And she just looked at me. And I looked at her. And I gave her extra pets. And extra hugs. And I asked her about her day. Then I told her that I knew that she was hurting. She just sat there, soaking up the attention, soaking up the love. I talked to her with tears in my eyes. She knows that I know. And I hope she knows that she is loved.
Monday, July 8, 2013
The Break
One week ago, almost exactly to the minute, we had set up camp at beautiful Johnston Canyon campgrounds, across from Johnston Canyon- near Banff.
The scenery was breathtaking. And the smell of fresh clean mountain air was lovely. The heat was stifling.
And we, My Sweetheart, DD, DS and myself were camping at a 'no service' campground. "The campfire," My Sweetheart claimed, "would be worth the trade off."
We were, for all intents and purposes, roughing it. I hadn't roughed it since I was a little girl camping with Dad, Mom, by Blue Suede Brother, and my Other Brother. But for My Sweetheart and DS, I would relent. Because of love.
For 3 nights we lived as pioneers: cooking over campstoves, strumming on guitars, listening to coyotes, huddled under tarps as rain poured down and thunder cracked and lightning rolled.
OK. I'll admit it. It wasn't like that at all. It was kind of strange, in a sense, to be at a 'no service' campground and still be able to take advantage of modern technology. We had our cell phones, and we charged them in the 5th wheel thanks to the solar panels that My Sweetheart had brought along. His, My Sweetheart's laptop, came out in the evening, powered by his personal hotspot on his cell phone. So during our hiatus from the outside trappings, we were looking at cruises, dreaming of winter vacations, checking emails. Weird, I know.
There were no rainstorms or thunderstorms. Guitars weren't being played. But memories were being made. Possibly a memory of a last family camping trip. Who knows? The Lord knows. From our point of view it doesn't look like we'll be taking a family camping trip again, but maybe we will.
Games were played. Reminiscing took place over the campfire. This mama was busy storing up memories in her heart. Bentley was busy cooling off in the Bow River that ran close to our site. My Sweetheart and DS enjoyed the ruggedness of the mountains. DD and I were longing for full service.
The break was good for us. We all needed the time to get away and relax. The Lord provided us with a beautiful venue to marvel at and enjoy. All is well.
The scenery was breathtaking. And the smell of fresh clean mountain air was lovely. The heat was stifling.
And we, My Sweetheart, DD, DS and myself were camping at a 'no service' campground. "The campfire," My Sweetheart claimed, "would be worth the trade off."
We were, for all intents and purposes, roughing it. I hadn't roughed it since I was a little girl camping with Dad, Mom, by Blue Suede Brother, and my Other Brother. But for My Sweetheart and DS, I would relent. Because of love.
For 3 nights we lived as pioneers: cooking over campstoves, strumming on guitars, listening to coyotes, huddled under tarps as rain poured down and thunder cracked and lightning rolled.
OK. I'll admit it. It wasn't like that at all. It was kind of strange, in a sense, to be at a 'no service' campground and still be able to take advantage of modern technology. We had our cell phones, and we charged them in the 5th wheel thanks to the solar panels that My Sweetheart had brought along. His, My Sweetheart's laptop, came out in the evening, powered by his personal hotspot on his cell phone. So during our hiatus from the outside trappings, we were looking at cruises, dreaming of winter vacations, checking emails. Weird, I know.
There were no rainstorms or thunderstorms. Guitars weren't being played. But memories were being made. Possibly a memory of a last family camping trip. Who knows? The Lord knows. From our point of view it doesn't look like we'll be taking a family camping trip again, but maybe we will.
Games were played. Reminiscing took place over the campfire. This mama was busy storing up memories in her heart. Bentley was busy cooling off in the Bow River that ran close to our site. My Sweetheart and DS enjoyed the ruggedness of the mountains. DD and I were longing for full service.
The break was good for us. We all needed the time to get away and relax. The Lord provided us with a beautiful venue to marvel at and enjoy. All is well.
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